| Monday, August 22nd, 2005 |
| 4:48 pm |
FUCKING ANDY NEEDS TO DIE
WOW...i always thought that my bestfriend would atleast keep something to herself...but i geuss not...talk to andy much??? Current Mood:  pissed off |
| 1:00 am |
crazyass weekend
and oh yea...kent bobby kyle and i got us kicked out of the hotel...lol...im not even kidding...we stayed up all night and it was funny cuz bobby and kent pissed off the balkuny...both like 3 times...and i feel asleep...and we threw stuff and hit drunks...lol...fun fun times...and my mom dyes her hair like a pink and Betty's purple...and yea...we waxed bobby's legs...and now he shaves them...but all around good times...lol...i'll tell more later... Current Mood:  giggly |
| 12:46 am |
fucked up week...well somewhat
yea i guess in other cases that my life would suck...but it really deosn't...i mean i went to Santa Cruz with Kent,Bobby,Jerret,Tiffany,Vall,My Mom,and Betty...and Kyle but whatever....anywho...that was alot of fun and all...and i still have a few days of freedom left...YAY...and i think there is gonna be a party this friday but im not sure...???...sure some of my friends kinda hate me...but i got to learn that i can't live by making everyone happy as they can be...and by doing that all my life mad my life hell...and i don't smoke or drink...i dont do drugs...i'm pretty much happy right now...and im still upset about something that has happened with my friend and i but i can't make her change her mind about how she thinks about me right?and Kent's dad is being a fucking dickhead and always will be that way...but atleast i got to steal him for 3 days...and nights...fun fun...but yea...him and bobby are like going out now...sadness...and Vall is pissing EVERYONE off...with her stupid little voice and her wanting to get her way only...and she yells at kent now...and everyone know i won't go for that at all...so she kinda needs to learn to back the fuck off sometimes...and kent and i are so funny now...when we would wake-up in the hotel him and i would be so fucking hiper...and we would wake everyone up...and oh yea...i fell asleep on the balkany...sp...and i was so fucking cold and i didn't want to go inside so he got up and got me blankets and a pillow and have me his sweatshirt...how sweet...and i have this really bad cough and he mad me take Robitusson....sp???ewww....but it did make me feel better...now he is always taking care of me...and i think it's so sweet...but yea...like all weekend i didnt have any make-up on tho...but i really didn't give a shit...but YAY...i'll go now... byes Current Mood: crazyCurrent Music: eat shit and die in hell...you know who you are |
| Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005 |
| 1:06 pm |
shit shit!!!!!!!!!!!!wayyyyy to much fucking drama!!!!!!!!!!!i need to like kill someone right now!!ahahah...thats a good one...stupid drake is being an emo-ass motherfucker...yea...and now my parents are still dicks..YAY...and i have alot of stuff to fix about my life...for one...EVERYTHING...and for tow...THINKING EVEYRTHING IS BAD...ok...god i sound emo...lol...im not at al tho...lol....ahahaahhahahahahhaha....... ........YOU SUCK!!! |
| Thursday, July 28th, 2005 |
| 1:55 am |
i'm back
well i got back from camp..yay!!!i so missed kent!!!and so yea...but now eveyone like hates me now...whateva whateva...like i give a shit...anywho...yea racheal cuts now....ahahah...i told her to cut up and down not side to side...lol...HA.in her face...she's dead to me tho...i really don't care about her anymore...i miss kent so much right now...i think he is gonna come over in like a min tho...lol...it's like 2 in the am tho...lol...he loves me so so so much!!!on friday will be 6 months...wow...thats a long time...and i love him so much...i will always love him tho...even if he hated me...but that won't happen tho...well...i got to go....talk to you guys later...byes Current Mood:  loved |
| Friday, July 15th, 2005 |
| 1:43 am |
this sucks...i can't sleep cuz i have slot on my mind...like for one..kent....like always...and then for 2 other things... |
| Thursday, July 14th, 2005 |
| 11:48 am |
last night
yea last night was wierd because i went to this new youth group and it turns out that kent's ex girlfriend was there...the one he was going out with when he broke-up with me...yea that was odd...she called him and said that i did all this stuff to her to make her life a living hell...but she CALLED him...my boyfriend....god lets just say it sucked...but i'm not just going to stop going tho...i meant that would be stupid just because a few girls have something against me...i sent her an e-mail to just let her know that i'm not going to mess with her...and her and i can act like we never even met before...and that i am going out with kent and that it won't change anytime soon....because him and i love eachother....yea but it really sucked.... Current Mood: frustratedCurrent Music: me yelling |
| Wednesday, July 13th, 2005 |
| 2:54 pm |
DUDE I AM SO BORED
yea today is sucking right now...i really want to hang out with kent or emily...WOW...my head hurts...tiffany sucks ass...drake is a girl...and he's gonna have a baby...kent is hot...sean is moving to San Fran...Sean likes me i think...i REALLY can't wait till camp... Current Mood: crazyCurrent Music: ME SINGING TO MYSELF |
| 12:15 am |
now it seems that i know i love kent...but he DID break up with me for 6 days...and he promised that he would never break up with me and did the same for him...and i didn't break MY promise...oh no i didn't...and so he thinks i'm just gonna forgive him..and the other day i was talking to him on the phone and he said that he loves me (as he always does) and then he said that he feels SO stupid for even breaking up with me...and that he would hurt anyone who hurt me in anyway and that in the end he hurt me the most...DUH!!!i mean i love him and always will but.....i just don't want to hear him tell me again that he won't EVER break up with me again...because how am i going to believe that?i want to with all my heart but i just can't right now...it's too hard...and luckly he hasn't told me that yet...i know that in the end it will come up...and on of the bad things about us going out is that he started to go out with some other fucking chick....WHAT THE HELL??? yea it still hurts once and awhile but still....but he said he never saw her or even talked to her one the phone...so if you think about it....it never really happened right?i mean like when you were like 10 you would say you were going out with someone but you would never call them or hug them...you NEVER really hung out with them...it was one of those things that people just said right? i think.... but kent and forgotten about it and he HATES when i bring it up because he knows that he fucked up...but still...it makes me sick to think that he was with someone else...but not..humm....this just has been bothering me for awhile...it sucks....HARD... and now he thinks that EVERYTHING is back to the old stuff...but i don't really think it is..i mean i DO still love him and everything....and he DOES still love me...but i do think some things have changed....but still i don't know what...this is fucked up...WHAT THE HELL I'M I THINKING??? I REALLY DON'T KNOW ANYMORE.... Current Mood: annoyed |
| Tuesday, February 8th, 2005 |
| 10:14 am |
Yeah...
the cruise is in a few weeks and i woll hella miss Kent.I'm so happy that we are going out. I need a new sk8deck.and i have no idea of what to get hin for Valentines day.I still hate this Holiday because now i don't know what to get him.maybe i could write him a song?or make him a poem book with peoms of how i feel about him.yeah thats sounds hella good.Emily i need you now to help me of what to do.okay i should write him poems of how i feel anout him.thats sounds so wicked. Current Mood:  poems.Current Music: avenged sevenfold |
| Monday, January 17th, 2005 |
| 8:23 pm |
yeah Baley sucks.
there is this chick at Josh's school that he used to go out with and she found the note that he was giving to me.and she was pissed.and she is like the girl that every guy wants to go out with.and if she even wants him back i swear i'll hunt her down and gut her like a fish.Josh broke-up with her because she always hugs guys and he is the jelous type and that was that.i mean i have waited to go back out with him.after Joe brake-up with me Josh was the only guy i really wanted to go out with besides Kent.and now i am over the whole Kent thing and over Joe.and Josh is going to ask me out or thats what Jamie said.and i was so happy but Baley needs to burn in hell!and i do mean that.and i know that if she goes near him Jamie will kick her ass.anywho.... got to go because i need to go do all of my homework. Current Mood: baley must dieCurrent Music: mcr |
| Tuesday, December 7th, 2004 |
| 6:59 pm |
okay now can you alll read this!!!!
Dreams I can hear the voices I can feel the chill in the air I can see the mist It seems as if Your really there At nights i can't sleep I can see your picture I hear you voice whispering in my ear I wish you were here. From our first hello To our last goodbye The first kiss you gave me To the last i ever had I wish you were here I long to call you mine For once in my life The days don't seem worth living And the nights are dark and endless Life just seems dead If you don't have someone to share it with So now i cry myself to sleep And never pick up the phone I wish i could call Please I don't deserve to be alone please tell me what you think Current Mood:  i wrote this songCurrent Music: me singing |
| 6:54 pm |
yeah my life sucks
i can't wait till Kent's girlfriend moves!!!or brakes-up with him.and yeah thanks everyone for commenting on my song.even if nobody did.got to go i'm really pissed off right now. Current Mood: i'm going to kill myselfCurrent Music: mcr-thank you for the venom |
| Wednesday, December 1st, 2004 |
| 4:09 pm |
Last night rocked
okay i wenet the this stupid tree lighting thing in town with my best racheal.and her and i were walking past these really hot guys.and when we pasted one of them ran into me just to talk.so we talked and then my friend "mop" showed up.don't ask about the nickname.long story. anywho.. well the one that i liked liked me.and i told my ex and he was pissed.well it was all his failt. Current Mood:  i'm on crackCurrent Music: lalalal |
| Friday, November 26th, 2004 |
| 8:07 pm |
i just want to live
it seems like everyday people judge you.yeah i wear all black and listen to slayer and My Chemical Romance,but that still doesn't mean that i'm some kid that wasn't hugged as a child and i don't do drugs.and just because i LOVE to sk8board doesn't mean that i'm going to go vandlise some store somewhere.all i want to do is live.so all you preps and jocks fuck off.don't even get me started about all the crap you pull,son!!!! Current Mood: back off!!!let me liveCurrent Music: My Chemical Romance-thanks for the venom |
| Thursday, November 25th, 2004 |
| 5:51 pm |
thanksgiving sucks
all day my mom and sister played ps2.i couldn't even get on for a few mins.yeah so that sucked.the food was great my g-ma's cooking thank you.i saw Joe yesturday and as always he was flirting with me.i really miss going out with him but i blame him for the brake-up.i was going to go to the sk8park but nobody was there.well people were there i just didn't like those people.anywho... but soemone tell me how the daily download went because i missed it.:( My Chemical Romance Rocks My Socks.... Current Mood:  bored to deathCurrent Music: My Chemical Romance-i'm not okay (i promise) |
| Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004 |
| 6:16 pm |
Yeah my life pretty much sucks right now
i spent to night at Emily's and alot of freaky crap happened.doors slaming without someone slaming them. we asked her little sister if she did it and she said no.and she wasn't lieing because she was freaked out by it to.and her mom didn't hear them and didn't do it.and we were asking the ouiji broard stuff befor the doors thing happened.and everythin gthat we asked it answered.i asked if me grandamother know if my mother was sorry for everything that she did when she was a teen because my grandmother died 5 days after my mother and father's wedding.and it said that she knew that she was sorry.then we asked if she had forgiven my mother and it said yes.emily didn't move it and nether did i.so that was really freaky.but when we would get really cold real fast or feel someone by us we would take a photo with the flash on.and when the film is all done we hope to have taken photos with some ghostys. Current Mood: i want to kill myselfCurrent Music: system of a down-chop suey |
| Friday, November 19th, 2004 |
| 5:48 pm |
Cops!!!
emily's mother is mad at me because of who knows what!!!so if she is reading this.... sorry if i have affended you in anyway.i just have had a really bad week.my mom and i are working on stuff in our lives.anywho...... today sucked.emily couldn't hang out with me.but reachel and i could.we hung out at her new apartment.then went to the sk8park and saw Kent.he is so hot!!!and i hope when his girl-freind leaves to where ever she is going to move to...i hope him and i will go out...reachel said that he liked me... i might call my ex tonight but i'm still not sure.we kinda promised that when one of us start to go out with someone that we would tell the other.well i think Kent is going to brake-up with his girl-friend and go out with me.but what would i say to joe???i mean if i found out that he moved on that fast i would be really sad.like i wasn't good for him.i really don't know what to do...but he shouldn't care right???he was the one who broke-up with me so it's pretty much his falt.anywho....i want a new skatedeck.really bad.emily if you are reading this can i barrow your zero deck and you barrow my zoo york for a little bit???i would forever love you in that friend kind of way if you know what i mean...i might go to the sk8park at like 7 in the morning...i i don't wake up untill 10 so...you do the math.... Current Mood: stop with the ordersCurrent Music: my mom telling me to do stuff |
| Thursday, November 18th, 2004 |
| 9:18 pm |
Kick Punch
today was pruddy good.Emily and i hung out.i retook my math test.i know this gay guy name dan.and he give quer guy for the striaght guy a bad name.he is too gay.and he thinks he is eminem with big ass ears.he is no slim shady...i'm the real shady.i hope emily is gonna read this.and my old friend jamie is going to get jumped for being a poser...she acts like avril.kick punch it's all in the mind.this dude named carlos always asks me for either money or a hug.i think he should die.meaning carlos and dan.hahahahahaha.........diediediedie... ..........CANADA IS GAY TOO!!!i'm not saying that all gay people suck mosts of them are really nice...buy these 2 are pretty excessive...so all you gay people besides dan and carlos are really nice.so you gays rock unless your carlos or dan. getting off with one last word..... BLAME CANADA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!or maybe two words Current Mood:  i'm dirtyCurrent Music: people talk9ing in my head |
| Wednesday, November 17th, 2004 |
| 10:04 pm |
Life SUCKS!!!!
today was good/bad.i found out that my best friend got grounded because of me.i can't go to the sk8park.i i don't love my ex anymore.but on the up side i found out that Kent likes me.but he has a girl-friend.i hope she dies.i got a f on a math test and need to retake it.my sister got kick out of the house for being a ass to my mom.yeah my mom went after her and tripped over something in her room and fell and hit her in the head with her head.i really hate my sister but who doesn't right???now all i do in the house is listen to my chemical romance cd and homework.i really hate being home-schooled.just because i beat 2 guys up last year doesn't mean i'll do it again right???but anywho....it's like 10 at night and i'll be up around 2.i still don't know why can't get to sleep anymore.and there is nothing on tv.news news news.i really don't want to know if someone got stabbed today.as long as it's not me i'm okay with it.i really need to get out more.and go out with Kent.i haven't kissed someone for almost a month.why did Joe have to brake-up with me???i still don't see why.just because he was under to much stress.well got to hell with stress.i miss him and today i realized that i don't love him anymore.i'm surprised that i got over him in less than a month.i think it's because most of the guys at the sk8park like me and would do anything for me.i can't help it if i hot right.BLAME CANADA!!!don't ask why okay.everything is because of them.global warming....them!!!people starving......them!!!!!they should just go to hell....burn burn burn...die die die...i'm so funny...i laugh at myself sometimes...well most of the times..lol lol lol...anywhoi need to got to hot topic and get some stuff.shot me in the head why don't you??? i'm kinda glad my sister is out of the house.now i can take stuff from her room without her know it.but it's not like i didn't do that when she was home.she is a freakin moron.i kid you not...and her boy-friend acts like he is 10 yaers old.thats pretty sad if you ask me.i mean when he comes over to my house he like taps my shoulder and thinks i don't know it's him.i mean can't my sister do better than that???i did.my ex was way more mature than my sisters.he was more intune with how you suppost to act.i mean she is a feakin dopehead for going out with that guy.and my mom always has to take him places because his mom is a freakin hoe.but she weighs like 250 so i don't know how she does it.but my mo takes him everywhere and then he disrespects her.does he want a ride or no???you tell me. and i end my online chat with on last word I Desire.....???? Current Mood: shot me in the headCurrent Music: dododododoI'M NOT OKAYdododododdodod |
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